獻給永恆女神的禱詞──從七等生《譚郎的書信》論藝術實踐與自我完成

Prayers Dedicated to Goddess of Eternity － Discussion on the Realization of Arts and Self Actualization in “Tan Lang’s Letters” by Qi Deng Sheng

從性別權力的視角下轉移，本文將《譚郎的書信》視為一個講述「藝術創作」本身的文本，透過七等生創作是書時，所關切的「如何復甦創作？」之問題意識作為詮釋的起點。我們特別指出：須將書信中「譚郎寫信給女友」的寫信活動，以及構成《譚》書的九封書信置於「獻給黛安娜女神」的特殊「對話」網絡中，才能讓「書信體」的表現形式充分呈顯出意義來。從譚郎的「寫信給女友」到作者的「獻給戴安娜女神」，書信的歷程正是創作者一次次往返於此岸與彼岸、表象與內在心靈之間的「雙向對話」之生命歷程，如此的對話遂如一場創作者的心靈冒險之旅，這正是「藝術實踐」的極神祕／神聖處，其中蘊藏著創作復甦的能量。其次，小說雖名為《譚郎的書信》，但當此一「形式」被創造完成，「譚郎」便已超越書信中那個具個別身份，被命名為「譚郎」（或七等生）的男性，而成為一個具普遍性意義的「純粹藝術創作者」塑像。他的生命特質是：在俗世生活的徬徨抉擇中，定向於內在彼岸的永恆女神，且在不斷的創作實踐中與女神展開永恆的對話，最後，為了讓女神可以通過自身的創作顯現出來，他須能不斷超越個人生活領域，「以其精神和心靈向整個人類的精神和心靈對話」，並「融匯在這個人類靈魂的傳統裡」，如此藝術作品才真正的誕生與完成了。此一藝術／生命歷程便是「獻給黛安娜女神」的隱喻意涵所在，我們以為對一個在當代社會中從事文學研究的人而言，此一寓意亦是饒富時代深意的。 Shifted from the perspective of gender power, this article deems “Tan Lang’s Letters” as one text to narrate “Artistic creation,” as the awareness of the issue of “How to revive the creation?” What concerned through Qi Deng Sheng’s creations is taken as the threshold of interpretation. We do hereby point out in particular: only placing the writing activity for “The Letters Sent to Girlfriend by Tan Lang” and nine letters composed of “Tan’s Book” in the special “dialogue” network of “Dedication to Goddess Diana” can the expression style of “letter format” be presented significantly. From Tan Lang’s “The Letters Sent to Girlfriend by Tan Lang” to the author’s “Dedication to Goddess Diana,” the process of letter writing is exactly the life experience of the “interactive dialogue” between the presentment and inner mind in the wake of the author’s frequent journey to and fro. Such dialogue is like the author’s journey to spiritual adventure and exactly signifies the mystery/sacredness of “Realization of arts” as it embraces the energy to revive the creation. Moreover, despite its title as “Tan Lang’s Letters” for the novel, but “Tan Lang” has transcended the individual status in the letters which was named as “Tan Lang” (or Qi Deng Sheng) when such “style” was accomplished, thus becoming one image of “Creator of pure art” with general meaning. The distinguishing characteristics of his life are: to be orientated to the goddess of eternity of the inner Paradise amid the hesitant choice in the secular life and delivering eternal dialogue with the goddess in incessant realization of arts. Finally, he must embraces the mental strength of “dedication” to get the goddess presented from his creations as he should keep transcending his individual realm of life by “delivering the dialogue with the entire human beings’ spirit and mind with his spirit and mind” and “harmonizing in the tradition of human beings’ soul,” thus giving birth to and accomplishing the artworks. The process of arts/life signifies the metaphoric meaning of “Dedication of Goddess Diana” as such metaphor signifies the profound meaning of times for one who devotes himself to the literature research in contemporary society.