基督教的靈性體驗：婚暴婦女堅韌生命歷程的敘說探究

Spiritual Experience of Christianity: The Life Narrative of a Tough Battered Female

研究者觀察到不少生活在親密暴力陰影下的婦女，透過靈性的體驗而找到自我保護與復原之道，然其中的心理機制並不清楚，為了深入探究此議題作為後續相關處遇之參考，本研究遵循建構主義的科學典範與敘事研究法的步驟，邀請一名過去長期受暴、但目前已遠離親密暴力、且獲得良好心理創傷復原的虔誠女性基督徒擔任受訪者，進行敘事研究的文本蒐集與分析。研究結果發現受訪者的生命歷程可分成三個主題階段，分別為「失功能家庭中的受苦經驗」、「從疏離的原生家庭轉入親密暴力關係中」、「破繭重生：基督信仰的修正性情感體驗」。綜觀受訪者的敘說內涵，可發現其在教會經歷到神的愛與包容之靈性體驗，乃為一種不同於先前生命受苦經驗的無條件積極關注，此種修正性的情緒經驗促其覺察到真實的自我、並且改變過去的人際互動模式，化解長期受到親密暴力的處境，顯露出正向靈性因應的心理特徵。本研究亦根據研究結果進行討論，並對未來研究與實務工作做出建議。

Through my experience of studying and helping battered females who live under the shadow of intimate partner violence (IPV), I have observed that many women learn techniques of resilience and self-protection through some form of spiritual experience. However, the mechanics of how this change occurs is not clear, so it is urgent to clarify this issue and use the results of this research as a reference point for future treatment considerations. This study was executed through use of Constructivism and a Narrative Research method process. A woman who defines herself as a devoted Christian was interviewed for this study. She had been battered for several years, but has overcome problems of IPV and showed signs of strong resilience when interviewed. The results of the study find that issues and problems that occurred to her throughout her life can be divided into three categories, which is as follows: the experience of suffering under a dysfunctional birth family, eventual escape from the abusive birth family only to jump into an IPV situation, and finally finding resilience from a Christian spiritual experience. According to her narrative, the spiritual awakening she experienced could be described as a ‘correctional emotional experience’, which was completely different from her early suffering. This positive coping spiritual experience leading her to ‘touch her real self’, and change interactional patterns, eventually leading to a melting of the victim's IPV situation. In this paper, I also discuss the results in relation to further suggestions for future research and practice.