《死亡與童女之舞》：胡因夢自傳的身心靈療癒書寫及其意義

Death and the Maiden's Dance: The Mind-Body-Spirit Healing Narrative and Its Significance in Hu Yinmeng's Autobiography

《死亡與童女之舞》是影星胡因夢在1999年出版的個人自傳，其詭異的書名預示了書中內容與一般自傳迥然不同。書中雖有胡因夢的成長過程與從影經歷，但是篇幅甚少。全書大部分內容是她追尋身心靈療癒以及求道的各種體驗，甚至是冥想所見。這些都是自由心證，卻又無法否定其存在的個人經驗，而這樣的心靈體驗敘述在書中佔了一半以上的篇幅。在自傳這樣的文類中，真實性是最重要的契約精神。本書卻讓讀者陷入不同種類真實性的錯位之中，呈現出魔幻寫實的閱讀體驗。本論文將分為三大部分探討，分別是心靈與身體，身心靈療癒過程，以及自傳式真相與新身分的建立，以了解其自傳寫作的真正目的。研究發現，本書不僅啟發了我們解讀自傳的另一種可能，同時胡因夢也在自傳中成功地建立起了新的身分。

Death and the Maiden's Dance is the autobiography of actress Hu Yinmeng, published in 1999. It’s enigmatic title hints that the book’s content is markedly different from typical autobiographies. While the book does include accounts of Hu’s childhood and her acting career, these occupy only a small portion. Most of the work focuses on her experiences in seeking physical, mental, and spiritual healing, as well as her spiritual quest—even including visions seen during meditation. These are highly subjective and unverifiable experiences, yet their existence cannot be outright denied. Such spiritual narratives make up more than half of the book’s content. In the genre of autobiography, truthfulness is generally considered a core contractual principle between author and reader. However, this book immerses readers in a disorienting interplay of different types of truth, delivering a magical realist reading experience.
This paper is divided into three main sections: the exploration of mind and body, the process of spiritual and psychological healing, and the establishment of autobiographical truth and new identity, to understand the true purpose of her autobiographical writing. The study finds that the book not only opens a new perspective for interpreting autobiographical writing but also shows how Hu Yinmeng successfully establishes a new self-identity through her autobiography.