致離世的文青引路人：賴香吟《文青之死》中的瘋狂與憂鬱

To the Departed Literary Youth Guide: Madness and Melancholy in Lai Xiangyin's Death of a Literary Youth

本論文以賴香吟的短篇小說集《文青之死》（2016）為探究文本，主要討論〈在幕間：一則偽評論或偽小說〉（2004）、〈文青之死〉（2015）和〈日正當中〉（2002）三篇小說。〈在幕間〉以維吉妮亞．吳爾芙（Virginia Woolf）與丈夫雷轉世後的婚姻生活為敘事線，從轉世後的妮亞視角閱讀吳爾芙，賦予新的「其後」觀察角度，讓「其後」不再是自殺者遺族艱難求活、重組語言的續篇，而是從後輩人的角度探究作家瘋狂與憂鬱，進而檢視當代社會如何將作家敏銳的心靈操作成消費商品。〈文青之死〉反思當代文青被標籤化、淪為消費「髒字」的現況，藉由步入中年、走入體制、建立家庭的女文青，探究小說中三層次的「文青之死」：Elliott Smith的死亡是第一層的「文青之死」；曾為影評人的吉兒成了體制內的陳思思，無法為敘事者「我」示範理想人生腳本，是第二重的「文青之死」；因應台灣文創產業興起，將個人感覺重新包裝成美學消費符號，廢墟、古蹟等閒置空間重構成藝文園區，卻因流於消費傾向，徒有形式而缺乏內容，造就第三重的「文青之死」。面對象徵性的文青之死，女文青如何新生？另一篇小說〈日正當中〉描述罹患憂鬱症的「她」如何成為母親的照顧者，藉服侍母親湯藥飲食，重獲對治憂鬱症的活力。藉由分析三篇小說，依次展現「母親」及照顧者的身份，終會改變女文青，幫助她們從霧色風景中走出來，展現正面能量。

Using Lai Xiangyin's collection of short fiction, The Death of Literary Youth (2016), as the text of inquiry, this paper focuses on three pieces of fiction, In Between the Curtains: a False Criticism or False Fiction (2004), The Death of Literary Youth (2015), and When the Day is Rising (2002).“Between the Scenes”is based on the story of Virginia Woolf's post-reincarnation marriage to her husband Ray. It focuses on the married life of Virginia Woolf and her husband Ray after their reincarnation, reading Woolf from the perspective of Nia after her reincarnation, and giving her a new perspective of“After”, so that“After”is no longer a continuation of the suicide survivor's hard struggle to survive and reorganize her language, but an exploration of the writer's insanity and melancholy from the perspective of her descendants, and then a further examination of how the contemporary society has turned the writer's sharp mind into a consumer product. The author's mind has been manipulated by contemporary society to become a consumer product.“The Death of a Literary Youth”reflects on the contemporary situation of literary youth being labeled and reduced to a consumer‘dirty word’, and explores the three levels of‘death of a literary youth’in the novel through the female literary youths who have reached middle age, entered the social system, and established a family: Elliott Smith's death is the first level of‘death of a literary youth’. The death of Elliott Smith is the first level of“death of the literary youth”. Jill, who used to be a movie critic, has become the Chen Sisi within the system, and is unable to demonstrate the ideal life script for the narrator,“I”, which is the second level of“death of the literary youth”. In response to the rise of Taiwan's cultural and creative industries, personal feelings have been repackaged as aesthetic consumer symbols, and unused spaces such as ruins and monuments have been reconstructed into art and cultural parks. However, due to the tendency to consume, these parks have only form but not content, resulting in the third“death of the literary youth”. The other novel,“The Sun is Rising”, describes how she, suffering from depression, becomes her mother's caretaker, and through serving her mother, she regains her energy to deal with depression. By analyzing the three novels in turn, it is shown that the roles of“mother”and caregiver will ultimately change the young women and help them to come out of their confused lives with positive energy.