困與尋：慈濟委員改宗生命歷程初探

Difficulties and Resolutions: Exploration of Tzu Chi Commissioners’Conversion Process

慈濟為成長快速的佛教團體，擁有眾多女性信眾。為瞭解慈濟委員改宗的生命歷程，研究者透過訪談委員、其家人與朋友，發現她們為解決遭遇的問題，經由社會網絡進入慈濟。宗教制度化操作下她們的認知、情感、身體儀態產生符合組織要求的轉變，將轉變落實於日常生活的實作，感受煩惱減輕以及獲得內心平靜與歡喜，進而改善與家人的關係並獲得其支持得以持續投入慈濟活動。《靜思語》是引導她們行為的共享知識結構，因緣果報的超自然解釋有時成為讓她們無法真實面對自己生活的另道枷鎖。「行菩薩道」的信仰價值讓報導人潛心投入助人工作與加強個人修身，以面對慈濟造成的疏失。

Tzu Chi Buddhism organization has grown rapidly and recruited many female be-lievers. To explore the conversion experience of commissioners, the researchers inter-viewed them, their families and friends. We found that they became Tzu Chi commission-ers through social networks to solve problems. After institutionalized religious activities transforming their cognition, emotions and bodily gestures, they were able to be incor-porated into organizational structures. They applied their religious experience to daily practices, alleviated personal trouble, got inside peace and happiness, improved families’ relationship and won families’ support for attending religious activities. Jing Si Aphorism guided their behavior. Sometimes they were shackled by the supernatural explanation inherent in the law of karma, so they could not understand their situations. Motivated by practicing Bodhisattva Dharma, they learned from the mistake made by Tzu Chi Bud-dhism organization, made an effort to help others, and cultivated personal merits.