雙重身分下的困境：學校教師教練勇闖職業賽事的生命經驗

The Challenge of Managing Dual Positions: The Journey of College Instructor and Coach Taking on the Professional Tennis Tour

體育老師在一般大眾的觀念中只是個帶學生運 動，偶爾陪學生打打球，上班等於是一般人休閒活動的 行業。而教練更被認為是一個只有早上帶選手晨操，然 後等到下午帶練習的一個很「爽」的職業。但事實並非 如此，甚至是同時身兼兩者時，其難度與工作內容更是 一般人無法想像的。當前臺灣身兼教師與教練身分的人 口也不少，然而卻鮮少獲得人關注。故本研究以筆者身 兼學校體育教師及球隊網球教練的雙重身分去進行探 討，在這過程中，又由於該身分性質，卻突然受到隊上 球員的請託，便毅然決然地暫時拋下身上的多重職務， 開始擔任全職職業網球教練，將人生置之腦後。這抉擇 讓筆者在過程中，直接面臨到原先雙重身分下，所必須 承擔的責任與其所處的困境，種種的荒謬與意外直接衝 擊到自身的生命深處。所幸在後期的努力下，藉由體育 人不服輸的幹勁，以積極行動反抗一切的荒謬與疑慮。 在整個經驗回想與反思後，才發現教師教練的本質與責 任並非如傳統刻板印象那樣的負面，而是同其他的行業 那樣，具有其特殊價值與奮鬥意義的。本研究以經驗敘 說為主軸，從敘說中重構教師教練的處境，並從處境中 提取經歷的生命意義，藉由一連串生命意義進行對話與 連結，重新找到教師教練自身身分的意義與價值。

Most people may have misconceptions about Physical Education instructor as well as team coach. They view what PE instructor do is working out together with students or simply providing the opportunity for students'' physical activity, while being a team coach on their opinion is just an easy job, which only arranges team practice through out each day. However, being a PE instructor or a team coach has its own responsibilities and challenges and is definitely not as easy as what most people thought. Not to mention if you work a dual position as both PE instructor and college team coach, the complexity of serving both positions is hard to imagine. Although there are many people having such dual position roles in Taiwan, this group of people has been overlooked quite often and rarely receiving the attention they deserve. In this personal narrative essay, the author shared his journey of being a professional tennis coach during a 4 moths professional tour by putting his full-time job as both college PE instructor and college tennis team coach on hold upon the request of one of his players. The author soon realized the responsibility and dilemma coming after his decision of taking this dual positions role, which had huge impact on his life value and brought up a great challenge upon him. By working hard and evaluating himself constantly throughout his own journey and by applying what he learned from his previous competitive player career, the author learned and proved that working as either position (PE instructor & team coach) is not as easy as what people thought and that, just like other professions, it has its own unique value and positive meaning. This essay focus on the author''s process of re-discovering the value and the meaning of working as dual positions (instructor & coach) by connecting a series of inner dialogue and by learning the meaning of life during his pro-tour experience.