超越政治正確的「女女」牽「拌」：從「我和我朋友」的故事看生命掙扎與價值體現

Beyond Politically Correct Identities: Understand the Life Struggle, the Realization of Value by the Story “My Friend and I”

在同志運動中，反對歧視與壓迫是一種政治正確的思維與行動理念，而其中也有一系列被視為理所當然的價值觀：像是愛戀同性的人必須經過同志認同的「認同政治」，或是不壓榨更底層的性偏好而且是酷兒的「差異政治」，不論是認同政治或是差異政治，這都是九○年代以來一種主流的同志文化氛圍。有條件接受如此同志文化洗禮或甚至救贖的同志大部分屬於菁英、都會、知識分子的身分，然而救贖並不發生在更邊陲、無機會與條件接觸這些文化資源的「女女」身上。本文透過台灣非主流女女情愛伴侶的訪談故事，看見主流菁英同志文化所建構出的同志主體，與另一種非主流女女主體之間清楚的距離；並看到女女情愛關係當中，牽繫與「拌」動的細緻過程；最後更進一步地看見他們為自身非主流處境抗鬥的實質資源為何，以及生命尋找出路的掙扎與重新肯定自我價值的發生過程。

In the gay movement, the idea of anti-discrimination was considered politically correct. And there were still some other ideas taken for granted: People who loved the same sex must “identify” themselves as gays or lesbians; and others whose sexual preferences differed from one another then “identify” themselves as queers. Nevertheless, these are the main cultural reality of gay movement in Taiwan after the 90’s. Unlike the intellectual, metropolitan ones, people who does not have chances to connect with these “identical” cultural resources could not be helped by this kind of gay movement. This article shows the interview story of two women in love, because they are not the intellectual, metropolitan ones, we can see the subjectivity of them is very different. In the story, we can see the delicate texture of how two women interact with each other. We can also see in which way they fight and in what resource context they are facing to the reality. And at last, we may see the occurrence from a woman who struggled for life to that she could find her own value and her own way.