面向存在之思──從七等生小說論愛慾、自然與個體化歷程

Rumination over Facing Existence─Course of Eros, Nature and Individualism in Novels by Qi Deng Sheng

作為一位哲思性格極為濃厚的作家，存在的關切一直是七等生作品的鮮明基調。本文試圖以隱喻的探求進入七等生的小說世界中，並以「內在生命世界的闡述」作為小說的隱喻核心，從中探討主題意識與小說敘事之關係。透過本文討論，可以看到七等生對存在的關切是以變動世局中，生命所遭逢的困境及如何從中獲致意義的新生作為思考起點。亦即，七等生是透過一段時間向度上，人如何回應於生命困局的歷程來思考「存在」意義：意義產生於生命的實踐方式中，因此，所有本質性的認知皆不能取代真實的存在本身，正是實踐的動能，才使得世俗生活與神聖奧秘有接通的可能，此一世俗生活與神聖奧秘的接通，在七等生小說中，是以人的朝向愛慾、自然與個體化面目出現的，這便是作者所謂的宗教性歷程，「書寫」亦便是此一歷程的探索。最後，透過隱喻性的閱讀，在作者，作品與詮釋者三者相互對話的「視域融合」(Horizontverschmelzung)過程中，存在意義的終極關懷亦被帶出，本文以為，對處於變動世局的現代人而言，此一問題是永不能忽略，且饒富深意的。

As an author possessing strong philosophical personality, concern of existence has long been the clear-cut motif presented in Qi Deng Sheng’s works. This essay attempts to apply metaphorical exploration to gain access to Qing Deng Sheng’s world of novel by taking“Elaboration on the World of Inner Life”as the metaphorical core of the novel to probe into the relationship between subject awareness and novel narration. This essay will further lead us to have a clear view that Qi Deng Sheng takes plights in life and how to obtain the meaningful rebirth in the fluctuating world situation as the threshold for thinking toward his concern of the existence. It signifies that Qi Deng Sheng thinks the meaning of“existence”through the course of how people respond the plight of life in the dimension of a period of time: The way for the practice of life is the land to generate meaning, as all cognitions of essence can hardly replace the real existence per se. Therefore, the issues of“existence”and“meaning”in Qi Deng Sheng’s works are embodied in the appearance of figures’“existence of practice”and“meaning of practice,”the driving forces of practice that make the possible connection of secular life with sacred mystery, while“connection”is the course of religion presented in the appearance of Eros, nature and individualism and“writing”is the exploration of“connection.”Finally, the terminal concern of the meaning of existence will be presented in the course of mutual dialogue of“Horizontverschmelzung”between the author, work and interpreter via the metaphorical reading. This essay will recognize that modern people in a fluctuating world situation should never overlook their terminal concern of the meaning of existence as it presents a meaning of profundity.