臺灣男子職業網球選手出國比賽歷程之情感經驗研究

A Study on the Emotional Experiences of Taiwanese Male Professional Tennis Players during Competitions Abroad

臺灣網球員參加職業比賽的出國歷程，必須面對語言、飲食、交通、情緒、醫療等適應問題，職網選手體驗著職業網球輸贏交織的世界。本研究目的是探究臺灣男子職業網球員的情感經驗，選擇七位參加職網比賽超過五年的男子職業網球員為研究參與者，以其中一位職業選手的日記為書寫的主體，再輔以訪談來論述職網選手的情感經驗。研究發現職網選手的情感不斷的在異鄉旅程中顯露，一種離開原鄉的不適與前往異鄉的惶恐，等待是經常存在的心境，登機、轉機、搭機、等練球、等比賽，球員面對的是一個孤獨的自我。從搭機起飛後開始面對愈來愈不熟悉的感官世界，必須在陌生與不安中強化自我的生存能力，面對因陌生所引起的寂寞，網路成為一種媒介，也是離開陌生、寂寞進入熟悉的管道，在那裡有熟識的朋友與家人，短暫的消解孤獨、不安的情緒。職網選手的情感是由所處的空間移動與輸贏情境所建構，隨著賽事不斷轉換比賽城市追求贏球，但往往是輸多於贏，也顯露了因輸球所帶來的各種情感，職網選手的自我必須不斷在時空轉換中尋找情感的平衡。本研究從網球職業選手身上發現一種因不斷在特定時空轉換的情感經驗，也因經濟因素需選擇隻身前往職業網球旅程，更加促發負面情感的存在。總之，職網球員身處自我懷疑的情感脈絡，也必須在習慣輸球歷程中來回於陌生與熟悉，這群網球的異鄉旅人在時間性的轉化歷程中看見自己。

The journey of Taiwanese tennis players traveling abroad for professional competitions poses various challenges, including language barriers, diet, transportation, emotions, and medical care. As professional tennis players, they navigate the intricate world where victories and defeats intermingle across the global tennis circuit. This study aims to delve into the emotional experiences of Taiwanese male professional tennis players. Seven male professional tennis players with more than five years of experience in the professional tennis realm were selected as interviewees. To provide a deeper understanding of the emotional experience of these professional tennis players, this research also includes the professional tennis diaries of retired players, serving as a complementary statement. The study reveals that mixed emotions of professional tennis players continually surface during their journeys in foreign lands. It involves a sense of discomfort upon leaving their hometown and apprehension as they venture into foreign countries. Waiting becomes a prevailing state of mind. Whether it is boarding flights, transferring, waiting for practice sessions, or awaiting matches, players confront their innermost selves, experiencing profound solitude. Once the planes take off, they start to confront an increasingly unfamiliar sensory world, having to reinforce their survival skills in an unfamiliar and unsettling environment. In the face of the loneliness resulting from unfamiliarity, the Internet emerges as a medium to transfer them from unfamiliarity and solitude to a familiar channel, where the presence of familiar friends and family temporarily alleviates their loneliness and uneasiness. The emotions of professional tennis players are constructed through their spatial movement and the scenarios of winning and losing. As players continually transfer from one city to another in pursuit of victory, they often encounter more losses than wins. This exposes them to various negative emotions stemming from defeat. The ego of a professional tennis player must continually seek an emotional balance amid the transition of time and space. This study identifies a unique emotional experience in professional tennis players who continually navigate specific time and space. Economic factors often compel them to embark on their professional tennis journey alone, further accentuating the presence of negative emotions. In short, professional tennis players are exposed to an emotional context characterized by self-doubt. They must also oscillate between strangeness and familiarity in the process of habitual loss. This group of tennis travelers in a foreign land ultimately comes to see themselves amid the temporal transformation.