從自傳視角論王定國《敵人的櫻花》對自我的改寫與重構──兼以散文集《探路》互證為論

On Wang Dingguo's Rewriting and Reconstruction of Self from the Perspective of Autobiography-On the Mutual Evidence of “The Sakura of the Enemy” and “Exploring the Road”

王定國是台灣一位富傳奇性的作家，他在40多年前開始寫作，之後轉戰商場，自此封筆，成為成功的企業家。在撂筆25年後再度重返文壇，先後獲得「中國時報開卷周報年度十大好書」、「臺北國際書展大獎」、「金鼎獎」等獎項。資本主義下的名利雙收卻沒有磨損他古典溫柔的創作個性以及細膩深沈的人文情懷，從商的經歷無疑提供他寫作的養分。這樣一位企業家作者引發筆者的好奇心，透過探勘他多部作品與訪談，發現王定國有意在創作中通過自我的分裂、對立，尋找那隱蔽在靈魂深處的自我。本文擬以王定國首部長篇小說《敵人的櫻花》與同步寫作散文集《探路》互證對照，解讀作家的心靈追索之旅，從自我分裂、自我對立、自我整合以見王定國的自我探尋的心路歷程。旨在挖掘小說敘事中的一種自傳式書寫，並希望能把此範式應用於對作者內宇宙的解讀中。試圖在與小說的研究中建構一個自傳所獨具的敘事研究框架，並希望以此批評模式為突破口，為當代自傳的研究開闢新的蹊徑。

Finding yourself is an eternal topic in life. People tend to forget their original intentions after socialization, and it is even more necessary to explore themselves. Any creation is the author's exploration of the self, only to see how he expresses it. Writers have two basic forms of life exploration: one is superficial, and this kind of exploration is what the author himself usually recognizes and belongs to the level of experience. The other is deep, it shows the writer's understanding of life itself, and it is transcendental. In the works, a profound experience of life pursuit is embodied, which is usually not clearly perceived by writers. However, it is this kind of emotional realization from the inner life that has nurtured the flower of artistic life and formed a colorful life landscape in the works. Wang Dingguo is a legendary writer in Taiwan. He started writing more than 40 years ago and then moved to the mall. Since then, he has become a successful entrepreneur. After re-entering the literary world 25 years later, he won the “China Times Open Weekly Top Ten Good Books”, “Taipei International Book Fair Award” and “Golden Tripod Award”. The fame and fortune under capitalism has not worn away his classical gentle personality and delicate and profound humanistic feelings. The experience of business has undoubtedly provided the nutrients of his writing. Such an entrepreneurial author has aroused my curiosity. Through exploring many of his works and interviews, I found that Wang Dingguo intends to find the self hidden in the depths of the soul through self-disintegration and opposition. This thesis intends to interpret the writer's spiritual recourse journey with Wang Dingguo's novel “The Sakura of the Enemy” and the essay collection “Exploring the Road”. From self-disintegration, self-confrontation and self-integration, see Wang Dingguo's self-exploration.