I，在舞中：以舞．動超越婚變傷痛的敘說探究

“I” in the Dance: A Narrative Inquiry into How Dance and Movement Support a Middle-Aged Woman Survive the Sorrows of Losing Her Marriage

本研究旨在理解研究對象在舞動方案實施期間，如何透過「舞」「動」法門支持超越婚變傷痛的過程，並試圖探究其促成轉化的心理機轉。舞動方案操作期間為民國102年9月起至103年1月止，「舞」指未經排練的、自發的肢體動作沿著一段時間序列而呈現空間上變化的即興組合，不論有無音樂做為背景，也不問是否符合客觀審美的標準或技術條件的要求。而「動」指的是走動，涉及位置在大範圍的空間裡移動，不拘步伐與快慢。婚變傷痛指離婚歷程中的一連串悲苦，包括婚姻遭致背叛、家務隱私被侵犯，以及離婚後在社交場合中心境的窘迫等。研究者採取敘說研究方法，以上述舞動方案中書寫的相關文字原始記錄做為基礎，依據時間序按主題軸重製故事文本。由於從文本的反覆閱讀中辨識出「覺察」主題，並發現圖像元素在方案中不可或缺，再加上研究者傾向以整體觀點看待事物，因此，資料的分析根據完形治療理論開展文本與文獻的對話。研究結果顯示，婚變經驗帶來的羞愧感，阻礙了關係的發展與重建認同的階段性任務。透過舞動方案中的舞．動模式，逐漸復甦的覺察除支持深化自我、區分人我，提昇差異接觸能力，還助成羞愧感的祛除，催化了連結的渴望。至於轉化之舞中的身體動作則有助於釋放創傷中淤塞的能量，截斷原本背叛創傷刺激和警醒反應間的自動化鏈結，促進情緒由負而正的轉化，在接觸干擾消退、自我調節功能回復後，覺察隨之亦得以甦醒。

The purpose of this research aimed firstly to comprehend the experiences in the dance and movement action program which had supported the participant to survive and to transcend the sorrows of losing her marriage and secondly to explore the psychological mechanism causing the transformation. Narrative method was adopted in this research. The raw data was collected from the diaries and journals written by the participant while the action program was going on and the research text was organized and presented following time sequences surrounding specific thematic axes. In the phase of data analysis, conversations between the text and the literature was developed on the basis of Gestalt approach therapy, since after the text being repeatedly read, the theme “awareness” was recognized, the factor “figure” seemed indispensable and holism was believed by the researcher. Because the dance and movement in the action program unexpectedly helped the participant to get rid of shame, to cope with the losses, to re-construct the self-identity which originally had fallen apart after her divorce and thus to overall improve her damaged emotional, cognitive and social functions, the researchers anticipate that by sharing the findings, this research will be able to increase the psychological helpers' knowledge about how body can affect mind and to expand the theoretical foundations of dance and movement therapy.