天主教信徒罹患癌症的受苦經驗與信仰體悟

The Experience of Suffering and Belief Perceived by the Catholic Cancer Patients

本文旨在探討罹患癌症信徒如何看待、反思自己的受苦經驗，及是否能夠超越當前的社會文化框架，具體化某種自己所信奉的真實道德觀？經由訪談四位天主教癌症信徒所記錄成的逐字稿，作為本文分析的主要材料。全文分成：罹患癌症者的身體、罹患癌症的病痛過程、癌症患者與他人關係、癌症患者的信仰意義等四個分析向度。研究結果發現，病後身體釋出的訊號及存有者意識身體的限度，使病者在復健的過程構出「我要用這身體服務更多人」的特殊身體觀。癌症信徒在回應癌症引起的肉體痛苦及內心焦慮，表現出超越克制的態度。理由是他（她）們察覺天主參與其病後生活世界，生命、死亡及癌症都歸天主控制，這信念讓癌症信徒的焦懼感稍得釋然。癌症信徒受苦經驗經其置於信仰框架內統合詮釋後，得以發展成為某種超越痛苦實踐生命意義的真實道德觀。

This paper is designed primarily to understand how the cancer believers look at and perceive their suffering experience. Could they transcend today's social-cultural framework and embody certain moral life which was obeyed by themselves? By means of interviewing four Catholic cancer believer as the main analytical data in this paper, the paper is divided into four parts: 1. The sick body of the cancer believers, 2. The suffering process of the cancer believers, 3. The relationship between the cancer believers and others around them, 4. The religious belief of the cancer believers. The discovery of this analytic research is very especial about how they look at their bodies: 'I want to serve more people with this body,' they believe. Because they are aware of God involves in their lives after illness and control all situations in the world. The cancer believers show the attitude of transcendence toward illness when they respond to their corporal suffering and anxiety in heart. This kind of faith relieves the cancer believers' anxiety and leads them to develop certain moral life which goes beyond the suffering and to realize the meaning of life accordingly.