理想與自我的安頓──陳列散文中的空間經驗

The Settling of Ideals and Self: An Observation from the Space Experience in Chen Lie’s Prose

陳列《躊躇之歌》裡的生命經驗，體現了個人擺盪於文學與政治空間之間，對於意義與美實踐途徑的拉扯；而其前作《地上歲月》、《永遠的山》、《人間．印象》等書，亦是「我」在天地間遊蕩歷程的記錄。基於此，本文乃希望藉由空間角度的切入，探討作家在移動位置的選擇及邊緣眼光的觀照裡，如何以帶著距離感的審視，關顧著邊緣人、邊緣地？如何以沉靜優美的文字，敘述社會空間裡的隱形暴力與自我壓抑？又如何被迫或自覺地介入威權空間，從而對體制內的地景塑造，提出其觀察與批判？在介入政治的過程裡，其內在思維產生何等變化？而最終，作家如何在自然空間的回返與文學空間的沉澱裡，尋得理想與自我的安頓？本文希望藉此釐清陳列於文字裡所透露的心跡與生命軌跡。

The life experience in Chen Lie 陳列’s recent book, Song of Hesitation《躊躇之歌》, shows an individual swinging between literature and politics and struggling for the practical way to meaning and beauty. And his previous books, Years on the Ground《地上歲月》, Eternal Hill《永遠的山》, and Human Impression《人間．印象》, are also the records of “I” loitering between earth and sky. From the viewpoint of space, the article hopes to investigate the following questions. How does the writer watch the marginal people and the marginal place at a distance? How does he describe the invisible violence and self-repression of the social space in quiet and beautiful words? How does he intervene in the authoritarian space under force or consciously and present his observations and criticism of the landscape shaping? How does his inner thinking change when he intervenes in politics? And finally, how does he settle his ideals and self in the return of natural space and in the precipitation of literary space? I hope to clarify the mental process and the life trajectory evealed in Chen Lie’s words.