菩薩行中的我與場域：一個女性學佛者在宗教社會服務的行動探究

The Person and the Field in the Buddhist Practice: Reflection on a Woman Buddhist in Social Service Agency

本文是以筆者在台北市佛教觀音線協會從事組織籌劃、帶領的服務經驗為基礎，運用行動研究的方法作為實踐行動省思的參考架構，企圖將生命探究、專業實踐與知識建構間的關係呈現。本文首先陳述筆者駐足學佛與行動研究的經歷，來呈現生命探究與知識建構間的關連；接著以筆者經營觀音線的經驗與困境作為回觀、省思的素材，並嘗試以專業框限、管理邏輯、利益鬥爭與女性處境等不同視角予以詮釋，以探討專業實踐與知識建構結合的可能路徑，同時企圖闡明專業實踐的困境須透過生命的省思，才得以建構對實踐有效的知識；最後筆者則是以自身女性的生命處境為省思基礎，探討對實踐為基礎的生命處境，或是助人專業較為有效的知識論，行動研究則是筆者的認同。對筆者而言，學佛是令筆者生命安住並找到方向的船錨，以及深化生命發展的指南針。基礎於此，行動研究則是在世存在的航海圖，指引了結合了專業實踐與知識生產的有效路徑，兩者都需回歸於對處境中自我生命的省思，才得以發展生命實踐的有效引導。

Buddhist practice helped the author overcome her existence anxiety, and lead her to serve the Taipei Buddhist Guanyin Counseling Center, and also helped her comprehend action research more. This article is the reflection on the process that how the author became a Buddhist, how she commit herself to action research, and reflection on the experience that the author as a founding member and the executive secretary of the Taipei Buddhist Guanyin Counseling Center. By doing this to show how the life development, professional practice, and knowledge construction, are related to each other.