從「惡女」到「人妻」：陳雪作品中的酷兒反／返家

From “È Nü” to “Rén Qī”: Queer Renouncing/Returning Home in Chen Xue’s Works

本文以酷兒批判論述中，非常規同志主體與異性戀家庭秩序之間的收編、對抗與協商關係作為理論視角，聚焦陳雪《惡女書》與《人妻日記》中對於原生家庭、伴侶關係以及女同志主體認同的書寫，分析在臺灣當代社會中，「家庭」作為一異性戀規範性體制對於同性戀主體的多重意義。本文提出「酷兒反／返家」的概念，陳述酷兒對家的「抗反」亦可能同時為「歸返」的欲求，透過「反／返」之間的離尋反覆，本文試圖深度探討「酷兒」的顛覆性與「家」的常規性之間超越二元對立的關係，進一步思考在對抗與收編的二元框架之外，家庭歸屬與酷兒顛覆之間可能發生的多重辯證與互構，並朝向發展一個脈絡化、在地化的酷兒閱讀與理論型構。

 

In the perspective of queer debates on the confrontation and negotiation between heteronormative accommodation and queer subversion, this paper explores the ways in which Chen Xue, one of the most influential and best-known queer writers in contemporary Taiwan, portrays the connections of lesbian subjects with the trope of “family.” My analysis demonstrates how Chen Xue represents queer eccentricity and rebelliousness simultaneously as a pleading for familial belonging and recognition; in the meantime, the incompatibility between queer subject and family of origin is mediated through lesbian partnership, recovered and reconstructed in subjective recollections. Therefore, this paper proposes a concept of “queer renouncing/returning home” in the attempt to challenge the binary relationship usually assumed between queer disruption and familial accommodation by showing how queer renouncement of heteronormative family is likely to be a desire to return to it at the same time. Furthermore, this paper reflects upon diverse relations possibly occurring between queer subjects and heteronormative institutions beyond the binary model, moving toward a more localized and contextualized queer reading and theorization in contemporary Taiwan.