一位不婚女性在親密關係中的斷裂與接縫：四個孩子的媽

“Repatching” Intimate Relationships: An Autobiographical Narrative Analysis of a Single Mother with Four Children

本研究的目的是藉由一個不婚但有四個孩子的女性為研究對象，透過三次共六小時的深度訪談，以敘說分析方法，進行本文的討論與對話；一個不婚女性如何透過多段親密關係中的各種經驗，重新定義自我與他人之間的關係？透過敘說的方式如何整合斷裂的經驗？研究結果分為兩個部份，第一是來自原生家庭的經驗，從原初的家庭經驗開始，爾後透過親密關係的互動，個體如何形塑自我，藉由客體關係理論中探討主體與客體間因著分裂而將對方視為好客體和壞客體的矛盾與衝突；第二部份個體在成為母親的過程，重新詮釋過往的經驗，試圖找尋自我整合過程的呈現。研究者在個案的敘說歷程，發現到影響主體外在的行為，不能僅是以表面呈現出來的問題進行解決，而是需要透過理解內在動力歷程，更能協助個案理解自己生命歷程的狀態，進而產生覺察，以及理解自己的抉擇。

 

The purpose of this research was to study the life experiences of a single mother with four children through a narrative analysis of six hours of in-depth interviews. The results are divided into two parts: The first part uses object relations theory to analyze how the individual shaped herself from her childhood experiences, interpreting how her observations and experiences of intimate relationships created conflict because of a split between the subject and object, which resulted in further incongruence and conflict. The second part focuses on the individual’s processes of becoming and being a mother, in which she reinterprets her past experiences and tries to find a way to reintegrate herself. The researcher argues that the the object’s extrinsic behavior can be resolved not only through perceived and ostensible problems, but also by understanding the processes that involve intrinsic motivation. Both can assist an individual to better understand the state of his or her life course.